Suck it.

kellymelchiorre @ 2006-04-10T19:40:00

2006-04-10T23:41:23Z

hell yeah.

kellymelchiorre @ 2006-01-23T15:21:00

2006-01-23T20:25:15Z

youre fake
you suck
no one likes you

kellymelchiorre @ 2006-01-10T19:22:00

2006-01-11T00:34:25Z

ok so ive given up.
what a happy helpless feeling
new york is this weekend and when i get back
i dont care.
i dont care if i ever hang out with anyone again
i will not try
i will not call everyone
i will not tell everyone about parties so they can ignore me when we get there
im not getting PJ to buy anyone alcohol
i introduce my friends to other people just to have them hang out and pretend i dont exist.
and its cool, im glad they are good friends.
but fuck that.
its sad because i refrain from telling people stuff.
like when someone is making them look like a complete ass behind their back
because i try to fix it without them knowing
and they have no idea.
people think im an asshole.
and yes i can be but im not hateful and i do care about people
i cant name one person that i hang out with once a week
besides PJ and thats sad
but im not crying over it im not begging to have real friends
im giving up.
when all of this is over
and no one is talking about who is fucking who
and who is smoking what
and who is sticking what up their nose
and what cool fucking band you are listening to today
then possible ill find a group of people i really like.
until then. Fuuuuuck This.

DIP SET.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-12-27T17:32:00

2005-12-27T22:32:33Z

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

You were lying in the sand like a burning ember ohh with the darkest tan i can still remember

2005-12-21T03:50:14Z

Imagine if we never lied
Imagine if we never tried
To be something we're not
We forgot how it feels
To be tight
To be close
To be real

And I miss you
And I wish you were here
I stopped breathing
When you said you don't care anymore

You're caught up in your plastic life
Changing right before my eyes
A chameleon
I used to know you like the back of my mind
Did that part of you die

And I miss you
And I wish you were here
I stopped breathing
When you said you don't care anymore

And I'm scared
Don't don't leave me alone
I'm home having nothing
Anyway anyway
Standin' on the corner in the pouring rain
Gotta find a drug that will keep me sane
Like you

I watch you from a distance
I remember all of those instances
When you smile
Whe you laugh
When you crash
When I'm there to catch you when you fall

And I miss you
And I wish you were here
I stopped breathing
When you said you don't care anymore
(And I miss you)
Tell me that you're doing fine
(And I wish you were here)
I still remember every time
(I stopped breathing)
And everyone I know will say
(When you said you don't care anymore)
That you are always apart of me
And I miss you like you never knew
And I miss you like you never knew

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-12-20T00:07:00

2005-12-20T05:10:08Z

its funny how.. when things are happening they are great.. like friendships.. they are amazing. until something happens and someone pretty much erases you. i read something tonight that made me angry and sad.. more sad though. being replaced is the worst feeling ever. it makes me feel like shit.

on a happy note.. i get to see JT tomorrow. =)

and me and pj had fun today. being dumb. even if i only saw him for like an hour. i still kicked his ass at sword fight. and he might be getting me a dog.. a fucking big one.

and i apparently love to use periods when i dont need to.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-12-05T22:27:00

2005-12-06T03:30:33Z

i am doing good.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-11-28T23:40:00

2005-11-29T04:38:45Z

i have the chicken flu.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-11-22T10:16:00

2005-11-22T15:17:42Z

best night ever.
i really cant express how much i love all of my friends.
even if it was borderline gay. who cares. haha <33333333
i know the best people ever.
i bet 10 dollars your friends dont compare to mine.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-11-21T16:00:00

2005-11-21T21:14:09Z

ok.. so ive been debating with myself for like a week now if i should make this update. i wrote it in my journal and decided to share it.. but i dont want to cause anything. sounds weird.. but idk. it only effects a few people. and i hope they read it and take it what its for and what its for only.

people who own peices of my heart.

Lydia. you are an amazing person and i think you will do wonderful in life. i wish i could give you the perfect person but im sure when you quit looking he will come along and he will see what a wonderful person you are and love you just as much as you love him. i wish you loved yourself as much as i love you because you deserve it. you deserve the world and if i could give it to you i would. you are beautiful (braces and all, haha)i cant wait to be 80 and still talking shit about people. i love you. whenever im sad i can look back on.. being shitfaced stealing the unicorn out of the ghetto, random shit in spanish, our late night conversations, drugs haha, mermaid babin, crying, laughing, loving, and just feelings that we have shared. i hope you never change to fit into your surroundings because you are amazingly perfect the way you are.

Miles. you are one of the most awesome, sweet and genuine people i have ever met. you are probably my favorite guy ever. you were the first person i felt "love" towards and from, and i dont mean like OMG I LOVE YOU but just like.. i really seriously love that kid. you never fail to make me smile or laugh and when im sad you make it better. you tell me how shit is and god knows i need that. you have the biggest heart of anyone ive ever met. and you too deserve the world in my eyes. whenever im sad i can look back on.. the first time you ever punched me in the car, sushi, the big chair in your basement, bed thrashing, valentines day, new years haha, sharing my twin bed, lydia taking a picture of us kissing, and the night katie took the asian picture. i love you and we will alway be teh gay.

- michael. stunning. amazing. ill never forget the first time i met you.
- of course PJ. i could list shit for hours. but its obvious. love.
- Katy. crazy shit. best summer ever.
- Katie. funniest person to be around. showers together. sharing a bed, and boys. ha
- caroline burke. even though we have never even really hung out. i love you you are the most sincere person i have ever met. and you are beautiful.
- Jim, just because i love you kid.
- Jesse- BFFL<3

boydskitterpee: be safe tonight i had a dream you died
KELLY nicolem: oh man
boydskitterpee: and i had to go to your house and sit with your mom
KELLY nicolem: holy shit
KELLY nicolem: howd i die
boydskitterpee: car wreck
KELLY nicolem: uh oh
KELLY nicolem: ill be careful
boydskitterpee: super safe tonight
boydskitterpee: haha
KELLY nicolem: def.
KELLY nicolem: just for you
that is why i love lydia.

<3 Kelly.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-11-14T00:20:00

2005-11-14T05:20:40Z

if my life were a novel would anyone even read it?
lately ive been feeling weird. or actually for a while now.
but im tired.

When you laugh you'll feel my breath there
filling up your lungs. And when you cry,
those aren't your tears but I'm there
falling down your cheek.
adn when you say you love him, taste me
I'm like poison on your tongue-
But when you're tired, if you're quiet,
you'll hear me singing you to sleep.

<3 Kelly
My Lord, how long to sing this song?
And my Lord, how much more of this pretending to be strong?

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-11-13T14:13:00

2005-11-13T19:13:11Z

uh oh.

hey cunt bag.

2005-11-03T23:50:51Z

i feel like my personality has been loaned to someone.
its a very akward feeling.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-11-01T22:20:00

2005-11-02T03:20:07Z

i never want anyone to be able to say, "yeah me and kelly used to be friends" i know im not the best person.. and im not always a good friend. but i really do love EVERY one of my friends and would do anything for you guys.
i know i can be a piece of shit but i totally love you.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-10-31T15:17:00

2005-10-31T20:18:28Z

i love weekends.
and halloween.
and i got a hair cut.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-10-23T22:04:00

2005-10-24T02:05:11Z

what a craaaazzzy fucking weekend.
i love it.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-10-13T20:04:00

2005-10-14T00:07:59Z

i just got so mad for no reason really.

The light from the street
Fills my room it's amazing to be alive, to see
The words that you said
Still resonate and blur up all the lines inside my head
I can't make this house a home
I don't want to make you hate me
I don't want to be the one who is mean or unfair
I love you until this day
I wish you would understand
I want to come over
I wanted to say
There's nobody else that I want to stay
(In bed all day)
I want to stay in bed all day
(I want to stay)
I'll stay in bed all day
I want to stay in bed all day
Piled high and pills
On a grain of sand for you
Like birds all around you
I'm confused and amazed
By the way that rooms sits still for you
And how I'm drawn away
I love the way you talk
So adoringly the way you talk about all the things I love
I remember when we kissed
your lips were red at the edges and I helped you undress
I wanted to tell you
I wanted to say
There's nobody else that I want to stay
(In bed all day)
I want to stay in bed all day
(I want to stay)
I'll stay in bed all day
I want to stay in bed all day, ooh
All day, ooh
All day, ooh
All day, ooh
All day, ooh
All day, ooh

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-10-03T23:39:00

2005-10-04T03:44:54Z

im glad me and PJ dont fight.
im glad we have fun.
and laugh
and play
and do dumb stuff
im glad i got to hang out with my friends today.
im glad im happy.

Kdizzle <3 big monkey bizzle.

This Feeling

I'm so excited, I just can't wait for you to come.
I've been living alone and lonely far too long.
When I see your face
And the love that's in your eyes,
You know I just can't place this feeling.

I'm so excited,
All my sad days will soon be over.
I know you can do it, because you did it before,
And I'm happy when I'm with you.
I guess it's a lot to ask of you
To change everything that's bad.
You know I have to laugh at this feeling.

There's one thing I hesitate to add -
What if it turns out bad?
We'll be living together,
Will we be spending too much time together?

I'm gonna find out just how close we really are,
And if having you around is better than being alone.
If I had to bet whether this works or not I'm certain
That it will but still I can't forget this feeling.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-09-21T17:02:00

2005-09-21T21:09:21Z

im not going to get mad over stupid stuff anymore.
im done with it.. im going to do what makes me happy
and be however i want to be
if people bitch or complain too bad.
everything is too awesome right now to be mad.
i love everyday.
i cant remember the last time i was anxious to start a new day
but it feels amazing, and nothing can kill that.

<3 Kelly.

if you are wearing a bullseye you are gonna get shot.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-09-20T00:25:00

2005-09-20T04:26:25Z

me and pj have been dating for four months.
thats weird.
i havent seen my friends in forever. that sucks
so this weekend. lets say.. saturday night. its on.
so if anyone wants to hang out let me know because i miss everyone.
and that might include you.
<3 Kelly.

ill pack your ass in a lunch box

Peehay007: go to fucking bed
KELLY nicolem: shut up asshole
= Love.

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-09-12T00:36:00

2005-09-12T04:40:38Z

Happy.

Happy Birthday Peeeeejjaaay

2005-08-31T12:41:51Z

I know I have one friends only banner already but i couldn't resist this...

Best song ever

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-08-01T03:05:00

2005-08-01T07:05:57Z

hey if you want to comment and do this it will be cute, and i might even do it back.
because im bored. and so are you.
so do it.

01. Who are you, what's our relationship?:
02. How and where did we meet?:
03. What's my middle name?:
04. How long have you known me?:
05. Tell me one good thing about myself?:
06. When you first saw me, what was your impression?:
07. My age:
08. Birthday:
09. My favorite band at the moment:
10. Colour eyes:
11. Do I have any siblings?:
12. Have you ever had a crush on me?:
13. What's one of my favorite things to do?:
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?:
15. Describe me in 3 words:
16. Name 5 things I love:
17. Do you think I'm good looking?:
18. How would you describe me to someone?:
19. Would you ever date me?:
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: What do you like most about me?:
22: If we could spend a day together, what would we do?:
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight?:
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
26. What do you think my weakness is?:
27. Do you think I'll get married?:
28. What makes me happy?:
29. What makes me sad?:
30. What reminds you of me?:
31. If you could give me anything, what would it be?:
32. When's the last time you saw me?:
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?:
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?:
35. Are you going to repost this and see what I say about you?:
36. If I was an ice cream flavor which would I be and why?:
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?:
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?:
39. Would you make a move on me?:
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?:

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-05-16T02:47:00

2005-05-16T07:17:41Z

Have you ever hit someone forcefully?: yesHave you ever thrown anything at a moving car?: yeahHave you ever been in a fist fight?: yesHave you ever laughed so hard you cried?: quite oftenHave you ever hit an animal on the road?: possum and like 84 birdsHave you ever seen a Beatles film?: no Have you ever cussed?: all the timeHave you ever been on a subway?: marta? its my favoriteHave you ever taught a little kid to cuss?: yes.. and say quif.Have you ever cheated on a test/exam?: yepHave you ever skipped school?: 435974353 times.Have you ever egged someones house?: yesHave you ever gotten a computer virus?: everyday hahaHave you ever cried for no reason at all?: yesHave you ever missed someone?: of courseAct your age: some times. rarely.Born on what day of the week: how the fuck do i know?Chore you hate: cleaning the kitchen can suck itDad's name: Mike.Essentail make-up item: eyelinerFavorite actors/actresses: Johnny Depp/ Natalie portmanGold or sliver: silverHometown: newnanInstruments you play: none Job title: hostess.Kids: fuck kids dude.Living arrangements: home.Mom's name: CarlaNumber of socks you own: socks are for faggots.Overnight hospital stays: a shit tonPhobia: none.Quote you like: Suck It.Religious affiliation: eh.Siblings: dylanTime you woke up today: 11 the first time and 5 the second timeUnusual habits: i like to fight entirely too much, and.. i brush my teeth a LOT.Vicious thing you've done: tons im sure.X-rays you've had: my entire body.Your favorite season: summerZodiac sign: uhh what? cancer.. i think?People have you loved?: i dont fall in love.People have you kissed?: enoughCommandments have you broken?: probably all of themPlaces have you lived in (for over 3 months)?: 98Countries have you been to?: 1Languages can you speak fluently?: english.People are you talking to right now?:katie chapmanTimes have you been in a car today?: 2Different kinds of meat have you eaten?: idkDifferent kinds of liquor have you tasted?: like a millionJobs you have held?: ahah.. 2 for two weeks and i start another one tuesday. wish me luck.Years of school have you attended?: enoughShows have you been to this month?: 1Friends would you call "close"?: katie and lydia.Coke or Pepsi?: sprite.Love or Lust?: neither. tv or movies?: moviescats or dogs?: catsmeal or dessert?: any foodeast coast or west coast?: easttall or short?: tallfootball or baseball?: footballsoccer or basketball?: socceroutside or indoors?: depends on the weather of courseblonde or brunette?: blondeapples or oranges?: applesaol or yahoo?: aolstars or moons?: stars.. and moons should be singular we only have one.Did you wake up this morning?: nope, im sleeping right now. actually did with lydia spooning me and my arm trapped under someone body.Are you/aren't you employed?: yeah dudeAre you with/without the person you love?: im not in love.Do people attempt things they think they can't do?: i do a lot. like.. gainers on trampolines.Do people hate each other?: i hate a lot of people, and a ton of people hate me. so yes.Do people love each other?: they think they do.Do so many people have jobs that they hate?: this is getting really fucking dumbIn the case of miscarriage, do we say that the mother "lost the baby"?: say whatever the fuck you want.Doesn't Communism work?: noDo you like your favorite band?: nope. hate em.Do you like your favorite food?: im getting mad for real.Do you practice/not practice Public Displays of Affection?: i dont mind kissing or hugging in front of people but more than thats kind of weird.Do you want to leave/stay?: leave always.Ask why?: what the fuck are you talking aboutName: Kelly Nicole MelchiorreNicknames: Kelly motherfucking nicole mother fucking mmmhmm thats good, mulky.. the end.Age: 16Birthday: 7/12/88Nationality: dont even have oneCurrent Height: 5'3"Hair Color: blonde and blackEye Color: green i thinkFamily: carla jerry dylanLocation: newnanCollege:a faaaaaaaaar faaaaaaaaar away one.Piercings: ears and belly bottonRed or Blue: redSpring or Fall: springSanta or Rudolph: rudolph doesnt give me presents fuck himMath or English: englishWhat are you going to do after you finish this survey: going to bed.What was the last food you ate: cheese... mmmmHigh School or College: College.Last movie you saw: panic room with sean and lydLast noise you heard: hawthorne heights.Last time you went out of state: spring breakThings you like in a girl/guy: friendship and holding hands.What book are you reading now: none =(Favorite board game: LIFEFavorite magazine: revolverWorst feeling in the world: sleeping in a bed alone.First thing you think of in the morning: im in bed alone. hahaFuture daughter's name: no kidsFuture son's name: kids can suck itChocolate or Vanilla: chocolateDo you sleep with a stuffed animal: yeah a platypusDream job: fashion designer/ photographer/ journalistWhats under your bed: another bedSchool or sleep?: wtf are you retardedDad or mom?: i cant choose.Friend or foe?: friendGirl or guy?: doesnt really matterLove or lust?: neitherBald or hair?: hairBoxers or briefs?: normal little boy underwearBike or car?: carLife or death?: lifedaughter or son?: deathMath or Science?: scienceChoir or PE?: peRain or Sun?: depends on my moodwalking lawn mower or riding lawn mower?: any i love cutting grassTrick or Treat?: fucking treat= food...so treatWhat's a weird fear you have that no one else probably does?: im not really scared of anything.. besides spiders..Is not Jon Stewart great?: yeah hes alrightWhat song are you listening to?: i miss you - incubusBest face wash/acne fighting product?: idkHow loud do you sneeze?: fucking i just sneeze normalDo you like your handwriting?: noUgliest color you've ever seen?: christmas colorsDoes having matching socks matter to you?: no socksif you were in band, what would you call it?: this survey is stupidLast time you were on a plane?: a long time agoHave a digital camera?: yes but i htink its brokenHow big is your TV?: let me go see... fucking idk normalHave you ever heard of Mystery Science Theater 3000?: noHow many pillows do you sleep with?: 2sex.. good or bad?: depends on who its withMost annoying commercail ever?: Lamest pick-up line ever?: i love lame pick up lines more than anythingDumbest song ever?: anything that has to do with beyonceWorst way to die?: in a fireWho's the funniest comedian?: dane mother fucking cookEver been in a car accident?:yeahEver had braces?: noDo you know HTML?: a bitWhat's the most useless class in school?: mathBest Jones Soda flavor?: holy shit lydia drinks thatSomething you collect?: hearts.. kidding um.. nothignSomething you're allergic to?: nothingSomething you wish would die?: youWhat is your name?: kellyAre you named after anyone?:nahWhat's your screename?: kellynicolemWould you name a child of yours after you?: nopeIf you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: rickyIf you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: lydialAre there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your nameconstantly?: melchiorre.. there are a ton of ways to fuck that upWould you drop your last name if you became famous?: nah

This weekend was awesome. I <3 Lydia. So Freaking Much.
even when shes super drunk and threatening to makeout with the toilet
and as always the show was fun, got to see a bunch of kids i dont get to see a lot.
so friday was the show and hanging out with ryan kelly, his girlfriend, pat and sean.
and saturday i had more work bull shit and then seans.. and then katys house to get katie and katy
then jimmys/seans... then back to katys and then back to seans where me and lydia crashed.
then today me and lydia slept a lotttt and watched meet the barkers and next.
and.. ate bugels. ive never seen lydia as drunk as she was last night and i loved it, which means we will be hanging out again next weekend and drinking our depression away... wtf.

ok anyway
i start work tuesday. and i only work three days this week, which is good but it also sucks because i need money.

you are a liar lalalala.

i read my entire LJ.. jesus christ. haha thats all i can think to say.

this is all rambling.. im going to go.

And is that what you call tact? You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back. So let's end this call, and end this conversation. and is that what you call a getaway? well tell me what you got away with.
cause you left the frays from the ties you severed when you say best friends means friends forever

kellymelchiorre @ 2005-05-15T23:32:00

2005-05-16T03:33:01Z